Tuesday, October 27, 2009
I was feeling very groggy and dizzy at work yesterday. Maybe because of the hours staring into the computer. I felt really terrible. By the time I ended work, my whole body was shivering and I felt that i couldn’t breathe. I proceeded straight to Maxwell food centre to grab something to eat. I decided to have porridge. Even when i tried to put some chilli in on my porridge I spilled it. Because my hands were shaking. Prfft. After a few minutes, I felt a whole lot better. Still..I was wondering why I had that shiver. Seems pretty scary. I felt like I was going to have a fit anytime. Luckily nothing happened.
I cant wait to get back home today actually. Reason being is,I do not want to miss my all time favourite The Mentalist and CSI Miami! And to rest..extremely exhausted.
Anyway,I am the kind of a person who will give a 100 percent to the people who are very close to me and to whom the people whom i love. But i sometimes feel that I give in too much. Whenever I tried standing up for myself to the people I love, I end up giving in again because I do not want to lose them or I o not want any negative energy around. But if i keep quiet, things will happen, unhappy things. Again and again. I’ll eventually get hurt again and again. I do not want to always be in this situation. To me, if I am as important to them as they are to me, they would try to understand. Standing up for myself is tiring cause everyone has their egos. But keeping quiet, taking it, giving in is even more draining. I'll pray that everyday will be better.
♥ posted on 5:12 AM
