Friday, January 1, 2010
Sometimes I really wonder who ever reads this blog of mine which is so consistently abandoned. 2009 has ended. finally. Its been a terrible terrible year for me. Sometimes I really hate to hear myself whining and whining about my stupid life in my blog or FB. But seriously, I cant pretend to be happy too. There are bits and pieces im happy abt in 2009 but some things I went through this year really overpowers that bits and pieces.
Nevertheless,I am still happy that at least I still have those bits and pieces. But just getting tired of experiencing the same old kind of problems all the time. Also I noticed that I really cant be too nice and giving to people because what do i get in return? being shunned,getting the negative vibes. ugh. i just dont know how some people can be so insensitive. well, thats life as u know it. We are Gods game.
There is something I hope to achieve in 2010..but i dont know if thats even remotely possible. But im just going to try. Im just going to keep pressing through to the end.
I know nobody decides if i have the right to be happy. I want to be happy. like genuinely happy and not pretending. I dont know how to do that.
I am not looking for advises nor am i looking for pity.i just wanna be heard. Nobody knows who i really am and what i really feel. really,nobody. just the person up there hearing my heart.
I guess my resolution is just to be genuinely happy this year.not a fake not a facade. I hope.
♥ posted on 8:22 AM
